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At midnight, I lie awake wondering about how things might have been if we had been together; if you had recognised what I had discovered. I haven’t been sleeping much lately since I’ve been wishing you felt the same way I do. Yes, I do. The present tense is used. That would have been something […]

Samiksha, Alia, Maahi, Piya, Tanya, Laila, and Dhwani are some of the names she goes by. It’s fine with me if her name isn’t yours anymore. I don’t have to crawl beneath her to dislike you, and my buddies don’t have to keep my phone hidden from me while I’m drunk. I don’t have to […]

Although everyone warned me about the evil ones, no one told me about the good guys. No one told you about the people who open doors and pull seats out for you. Those who have a knack for saying the perfect thing at the right time. Those who are courteous and respectable. They’re the ones […]

HOW WILL YOU HELP A PERSON WITH SUICIDAL THOUGHTS?Suicide is a desparate attempt to escape suffering that has become unbearable. Blinded by feelings, of self loathing, helplessness and isolation, a suicidal can’t see any way of finding relief except through death. Most Suicidal people are deeply conflicted about ending their own lives. They can’t see […]

Your mask loosened and your scales appeared, and you almost deceived me. I was laying next to you, thinking you loved me, but all you really cared about was yourself. In the amazing chaos you manufactured to keep me at your side, I almost missed it. I chose to see your kindness rather than the […]

I was peeling sweet potatoes in the kitchen when she told me she loved me for the first time. Telling me this seemed like such a commonplace, yet wonderful, moment, yet she did it anyhow, and it was the most exquisite sensation I’ve ever experienced. Listen, I believe that love is defined by quiet moments. […]

It’s strange how even the tiniest details remind me of you. Almost every day, I visit our coffee shop. I’ve gotten close to finishing my own cup, but I still can’t do it most days. Perhaps it’s because the prospect of the end scares me. I don’t want to think it’s real, even though I […]

When I used to look at you, I could see my—our—future. That, I believe, is the most painful aspect. You felt different right away, in this lovely, almost fairy tale way. I tried to tell myself that it was all a ruse, but you performed flawlessly. I tried but failed to resist you. You tore […]

It’s past time for me to lay down my guard, swallow my pride, and risk my heart. Maybe I’m the only one, but I’m completely ensorcelled by you. I believe you deserve to know that your presence is just… fantastic. Even on the clearest of nights, the varied hues that shine in those hazel eyes […]

This was written during the post lockdown era I don’t know how much of it will be relatable but just have a good read! ☺️ I just wanted my usual life back a few hours ago. I wanted to be in my classroom with my kids for a few hours before racing across town to […]

TRIGGER WARNING! No one warned me how often I’d remember his face, even years after it happened. His shaking thighs were encircled by his hands and the tightness of his fingers. My throat is constricting and my mouth is dry. Years later, anytime someone touches me, a part of me feels it’s the Devil, trying […]

My father would constantly tell the tale of how we, a family of four Indian nationals, almost were caught smuggling a book from the United States to India in the early 1990s (my now and forever home). “You and your brother were both very young, and we had placed the book under the covers that […]

This question has always put me in a dilemma because I’ve somewhere seen both the glimpses. I don’t really think I’m a party animal who would make friends with random strangers, but I definitely enjoy clubbing now and then with my tiny circle of friends.I wouldn’t mind saying I wasn’t really comfortable in my own […]

If she asks, tell her you’re sorry if she reads the poetry. Inform her that you adore her. Tell her how much you like her soft and loving nature. Because it’s the truth, tell her you adore her. But don’t forget that you adored me as well. Tell her you adore her, but also that […]

As I travelled and strolled down the dusty grey alley in Tbilisi, the leaves rustled quietly.Such an unfamiliar place, such persistent uneaseMy hair was ruffled in front of my face, which I smoothed away with my fingers.My face seemed strange, and my clothes and shoes didn’t fit in.I stumbled inside a kitchen with dimly discernible […]

Well,I haven’t really sat with a cute little notebook journaling about something I was actually passionate about. But if we talk about passion, it is something that keeps you going, just satisfies your soul more than your mind and is something that makes you feel like you actually have a reason to keep going and […]

Remember all of the mountains you’ve conquered before on those days when it feels like you’ll never get through this season, this period, or this change. Please recall all of the nights you were sure that the anxiousness would never go away, that you’d never be able to move on from where you were. Time […]

Let’s just be honest: Self Self and self doubt, ‘Aims many things can be good or you loose’. Everytime you think of self love and talk about self love what is self love? For girls maybe getting ready, having fun, maybe some self sexual performance and for boys maybe styling, trips, chilling, goals and self […]

Culture is a culmination of customs, social behaviors, and traditions. It creates a lifestyle that seems comforting, providing us with guidance. When asked about culture, I am often met with the response, “It’s tradition.” Sometimes culture and religion get mixed up and seem to have a relationship with skin color, but in reality, culture is […]

Emotions come and go. We’ll never be completely content, and I don’t believe we’re intended to be. We would never take any chances if we were constantly satisfied and pleased with where we are in life. We’d never take a step ahead or open a door to explore what more is available to us. We’d […]

Let’s just be honest: World “Not being so cruel but I’m no matter what, you have to deal with me” – World. World? What is this world? Where people have different opinions? Where people have different ways of doing the same thing? Where people have particular time, food, language, tradition, laws, shelter everything? Well yes. […]

Hello, Crush. Thank you for your existence. For a little while, I was becoming jaded, until you came along to shine a bright light on my life. It makes no difference to me if we really hook up (well, sort of). I’m just relieved to see you. I don’t know you very well, which is […]

One. A boy and a girl meet. Boy makes friends with girl and invites her to supper. Except for the employees, they speak until they’re the only ones remaining. They drive to the beach and sit on the pier, swinging their feet above the ocean while listening to his music. He observes her gazing carefully […]

It’s challenging to be the girl who has “too many sentiments” in a society where rationality rules. It’s a continual fight to keep your sentiments to yourself or to scare others away. We all do it, some more than others, but we all hide our hearts to keep them from breaking. “I love you,” we […]

I’m not looking for a cliched love tale in which two individuals fall in love with the idea of one other. I’m looking for someone that isn’t a cliche and doesn’t hide behind their public character. I don’t want a love that is only honoured on rare occasions. Instead, I want to be adored and […]

Let’s just be honest: Parents! Parents are blessings no doubt, on every step we take they know from where we start and how it’s going to end. But at times we have our own thought process to make something better and in a easy way don’t we? And still parents make us walk on the […]

You should give them an opportunity to succeed. You shouldn’t dismiss someone just because you met them without getting to know them. They could astound you. You could develop a strong attachment to them. There’s no reason to date someone if you’re totally certain they’re not the proper person for you. There’s no point in […]

Since the #MeToo movement gained traction in 2017, women and men have gradually been more comfortable coming up about the sexual abuse that 20 percent of women and 4% of men have endured in their lives—and those are just the ones we know about. I’ve always been outspoken about problems like this, but I was […]

You don’t have to constantly be the sweetheart. Not when it means settling for less than you are entitled to. When it comes to allowing others to walk all over you, no. Not when it involves sacrificing your own pleasure in order to help others feel better. Stop trying to preserve the peace by being […]

I’m not a feminist, but I feel my womanly womb clench her muscles and my authority re-wild when I see conglomerates of blood in the toilet bowl, but modesty and insularity heightens still embarrassed if a cotton pad falls out of the bag or if red blood is caught on the sheets, as if I […]

We’ve all rolled our eyes at the nibbi sobo chick who chugs a gym freak tall boy and bats her eyelids at the bunch of boys she’s with while coyly saying, “All of my pals are guys, girls are just soooo catty.” “All I want to do is chat about sports with someone.” We usually […]

Many people believe that discussing sexuality freely and building a good connection with it is banned. This might be due to your parents’ attitudes about the subject, religious views, or just a lack of knowledge since you haven’t researched your body in depth. Why is it that one of our most basic inclinations is deemed […]

(Written in GENERAL Context, kindly read and enjoy it, don’t run behind me!) As the adage goes, practise makes perfect. We will get better at something if we practise it a lot. In my personal dating and sexual experiences, I’ve discovered that the girls that are better in bed tend to be older, and this […]

Do you avoid initiating sex with your lover because you’re afraid of being rejected? We often ignore our sexual wants and desires because we are afraid of being rejected. I’ve met ladies who avoided initiating sex for months or even years because they were terrified of it. Ladies, no more! It’s time to pursue the […]

Yes, we’re acquaintances. That isn’t even a query. It’s impossible to imagine how much we’ve been through together. We had more faith in each other than anybody else, including our own family members. And you’re still the first person I’d contact if there was a funeral, a fire, or a psychological breakdown, whether it was […]

It’s 4:20 a.m. on Wednesday. Quarantine is on day 40 or thereabouts. I turn over and grab my phone from my bedside table with a groan. I glance at the first few items on my Instagram feed, check a Twitter notice, then scan through my Gmail inbox indifferently. During these last several weeks of working […]

I had my earbuds in the first time.I don’t believe I ever turned on the music.“This is bizarre,” I said over and again as I strolled down the aisles.After one hour, my vocabulary was completely depleted.I sat down in my car and fired it up. I accompanied you the second time.I warned you it would […]

I am a huge movie and television buff. There are a variety of films and television series to choose from. Thrillers, comedies, and romantic comedies, to mention a few. I particularly enjoy stories in which I can identify with the protagonist. Because of my “weirdness,” I’ve been likened to Himanshu from Khichdi and Bhavesh Bhai […]

You. You. You. You’re great. You are incredible, creative, brilliant, smart, funny, humble, committed, loyal, and hardworking, among many other attributes you have yet to discover. You are a great human who is becoming more and more influential in the world with each passing day. Simply existing is awe-inspiring in and of itself. You are […]

This is the third part of the Trilogy!You can find the other 2 parts here 👇🏻 Part 1 Part 2 A message of gratitude to people I’ve loved and lost, as well as those who continue to support me. Some nights, the poetry just flows off my tongue, and the parts fall into place naturally. […]

I know I had thought about you more than I should have. When I was getting dressed, when I was attempting to fall asleep by staring at my ceiling fan, when I was alone in my room listening to music I didn’t mind when your name encompassed me in a tight grip from which I […]

Accept responsibility for what occurred. Because of the errors you committed. Because you didn’t show up the way you needed to. You’re mad with yourself for not being the person you wanted to be. You’re a person. You did the best you could with what you knew and what you had at the time, and […]

CHECK OUT MY PREVIOUS WORK ON THE SAME TOPIC Meri Jaan! – Desai Thoughts MEdia, INC. (wordpress.com) Mumbai is India’s busiest and biggest city, with an explosive energy that overwhelms everyone. It is a centre of commerce, education, entertainment, art, and culture. The city of Mumbai is known for several historically and culturally significant locations. […]

Your distress is understandable.Even if “worse” has been experienced by others.Even if someone else who has had the same experience does not find it to be crippling.It “could have been averted,” even though it “could have been avoided.”Even if it occurred many years ago.Even if no one else is aware.Your experience is real and genuine, […]

Anita Kapoor, an elementary education major at Ahmedabad University was 18 years old. To support herself and move from her family’s house an hour away, she took two jobs, one at a hotel front desk and the other in retail. Anita had a two-bedroom apartment near university with Neha Rai, her roommate (19). Neha and […]

“It takes a lot to mend a shattered heart, but much more to believe that it won’t break again.”Love has no borders or limits, but when one doesn’t know where to stop, that’s when they begin their path of being harmed. It’s when we start to anticipate the same effort from our spouse and are […]

You were the first person I let into my life after I split up with my ex after 2 years of being alone and depressed. You were someone I trusted, someone I felt secure with, and you made me happy in ways I couldn’t have imagined. I thought we’d end up dating, but I didn’t […]

Allow yourself the luxury of being a novice.Everyone starts somewhere, and everyone who is truly exceptional at what they do was once a novice who struggled.And you’re free to do so.You are permitted to be a person who does not yet possess all of the answers.It’s okay to be flawed, to make errors, and to […]

I was 21 when I first had a conscious crush on a female. We can track fascinations and extremely tight transitory friendships back in time and discuss whether or not they were crushes, but that’s not what we’re concentrating on right now. “I want to kiss her in real life,” I thought for the first […]

To be valuable, you don’t have to be productive.Increasing your workload does not make you better, smarter, or more useful. Taking a break isn’t the same as being lazy. It gives you a sense of humanity. No one can work indefinitely without wanting to take a break.Nobody is always moving, doing, and producing.Everyone requires quiet […]

Toxic relationships will alter your perspective on love. They will obliterate the distinctions between right and wrong, acceptable and unacceptable.When you’ve been in a toxic relationship for a long time, you’ll justify everything that goes wrong. In order to match your story, you’ll distort reality. You could consider jealousy to be charming. Screaming may appear […]

Sexual assault is a trigger warning.There is no sex education in any Indian school.You attend a meeting where the speaker asks, “Who wants it?” while holding out a stick of gum.Of course, everyone does. Gum is a highly sought-after illicit drug and black-market cash.The speaker eats the gum, spits it into his fingers, and then […]

There’s a reason why my walls are built so high, and there’s a reason it will take you longer than expected to bring them down. There’s a reason why I’m guarded. I’m guarded because I’ve been hurt before. We all have. My weakness is that I carry the pain with me as a constant reminder […]

There’s a very specific method I like to use when I’m trying to decide whether or not someone’s worth dating. First, I sit down and think – long and hard – about every single trait that I desire in a potential partner. I debate the pros and cons of various possible professions. I determine the importance of […]

I have loved you like a candle flame. Like a star too big to fall from grace. A winter storm. an unopened book. A sleeping meadow. A humid august. A wishing well. I have loved you like the soles of shoes worn in every country. Like the back of my hand. Like the inside of […]

Forgive yourself for what happened. For the mistakes you made. For not showing up the way up the way you needed to. For not being the person you wanted to be. You’re human. You did the best you could in the moment given what you knew and what you had, and that’s all you can […]

When you have a strong mother, you realize you don’t need a man to find happiness. You realize that any girl can flourish on her own, without a hand to hold. You realize that your love life has zero correlation with how successful you become, with how fulfilled you feel. When you have a strong mother, you learn to […]

You could send me a text message with only one or two words and I will still overthink what your sentence meant. You could smile at me from across a crowded room and I will overthink what the look meant. I wish I knew what other people were thinking because I spend so much of […]

Some people will never be yours, no matter how much you want them to be. What’s yours is yours, and always will be. But what if you want someone, and it’s not in the cards? Sometimes we fight for things that simply aren’t there. The person you deserve will make it obvious. They will put […]

Date someone who pulls forth your greatest qualities.There’s more to it than good manners, compassion, or development and learning.However, the one who teaches you how to begin living.Even if everyone else thinks it’s weird, it makes sense to you.Date someone who encourages you to accomplish things you’re afraid of.Even if they are the only one […]

In the past, I was always trying to find someone to love me unconditionally (and forever), but I was always so hesitant to love someone the same way because I was scared of getting hurt. Looking back, I see the irony and hypocrisy in my thinking—I knew what I wanted, but I was not ready […]

This is me learning to slow down along the way to notice the way a stranger smiles at me randomly in the street. This is me learning to be more present at the moment and enjoy the everyday little things, like that quick chat I have with the barista till the coffee gets ready or […]

You’ll lose her as soon as she begins to feel underappreciated, as soon as she begins to wonder if you even notice all of the lovely things she’s done for you, as soon as she begins to wonder why she bothers to be good to you in the first place.If you fail to thank her […]

There are songs in this world that feel like love. They are slowed and warm, as though they are suddenly playing inside your belly. The sound goes deeper as the butterflies inside you carry them up and down, creating a storm of uncertain warm feelings called love. At that moment, even if you don’t have […]

It seems so simple and so easy, just love hard and it will all work out. Just give it your best. Just hold nothing back. Be brave. Be vulnerable. And everything will work out for you. But you know that isn’t always the case sometimes. Because sometimes you can love someone with everything you have, […]

Have a look at this. Part 1 link here. Part 2 link here. Are they any different from us?Today I’m gonna talk about one of the 3 very famous and my favourite serial killers!It’s gonna be a trilogy!What/ Who are serial killers?People who tend to murder a lot of people are serial killers, these people […]

You’ve heard the lie that solitude is losing. That empty-handed is never what you want to be, because those who go at life solo are broken. They don’t fit. They don’t function. They aren’t whole. And maybe you feel that way sometimes. You sit in muted light and wonder when the day will feel full […]

I try to lace my work with optimism because a guiding principle in my own life has been that the most tragic things in our lives almost always precede the most incredible. I think that, at any given point, we are faced with the choice of whether to move on with what the universe gives […]

I am writing as a cis-gendered white female; I am writing as someone who is aware of their social and economic privilege; I am writing as someone who is blessed to have a supportive and loving circle of family and friends. I happen to fit into the margins of what society deems ‘acceptable’, and for […]

To Whom It May Concern, I feel like this is long overdue. I never knew that my body type would be the concern of so many people. Growing up, I always knew I stood out. Wearing leggings in grade school because I couldn’t fit into kids’ jeans or pants or skirts. Being told that later […]

I have had a long relationship with MaybeMaybe I should go thereMaybe I should do thisMaybe I shouldn’t have done thatA phone full of screenshots of places that maybe I want to goBookcases full of cabins that would maybe make me happierMaybe I am always running awayMaybeOr Maybe I am looking outside too muchAt every […]

The idea of perfection is taught to us at a young age. The perfect body, the perfect relationship, the perfect version of ourselves that we need to be in a relationship. See, all of that is bullshit because we all have flaws. All of us are messy and broken in our own ways. Perfection does […]

He was a summer storm, full of flashing lightning and quaking thunder that should have left her trembling. She was a fire on her own, and the brush she passed over was always left to ruin. She knew quite well that the rain would bring an end to her, even if she was a fire […]

I see photos of these perfect couples with their perfect loveA love they say is simple and easyAnd for so longI believed themAnd so I sought a perfect loverTo share a perfect loveBut I am not simple and I am not easyNor am I perfectAnd neither are you Loving you isn’t simpleFor I am a […]

When you’re little, they don’t tell you about all the colors you’ll feel. They tell you things are black and white. Right or wrong. Yes or no. Stop or go. Short or tall. Rich or poor. Fat or thin. Love or hate. There’s no in between until you start to realize there is. You learn about […]

I am staring from the inside of a glass jar,Hands up, pressed against the glass.Or is the glass pressing against me?I am on the inside looking out.I am stuck behind a barrier between the real world and everything that is going on within me. I wish I could tell you everything that is going on.I […]

In stories there are clear lines drawn to define characters and circumstances;illustrate and demonstratewhat they are, and what they are not.The audience often has a good sense of what’s what. Real life, however, is nuanced and enigmatic;lines are blurred and confusing,circumstances are ambiguous and inconclusive,people are ever-changing. Maybe that’s why we’re all so anxious.Maybe that’s […]

I wanted to write you a poem. I wanted to write you a page full of verses. I wanted to show you the alliteration of our souls and how since I’ve loved you I feel like I’ve met myself. I wanted to tell you that I didn’t realize I was on autopilot until your soul […]

It doesn’t matter whether you were officially in a relationship with her. The fact that you flirted with her was enough. The fact that you gave her attention was enough. The second that you smiled at her, it was all over. She was locked on you. Attached to the idea of you. It’s not because she’s shallow. […]

She likes to overthink a lot, she likes to over analyze, she likes to walk when her chest aches.She likes kisses at midnights in the messages, and she gets quiet when she’s anxious. She takes pictures of just about everything, and she plays with her nails when she gets nervous. She is caring without a […]

To begin, I would like to state that I find your unbearable fascination with women like me honoring, truly. But I do believe that your obsessive tendencies have given me no other option rather than to intervene. Your obsession frightens me to the point where I am afraid to walk alone at night because I […]

This is a valentine’s special blog! She always says there isn’t a specific day for love to be celebrated, love is not a festival or an occasion, it is a feeling that you should celebrate everyday! ❤️👽 “For obvious reasons I’m not gonna name anyone!” “I hope you get to read this, if I’m not […]

The second star to the right shines a light so rare. It shines in the night for you. If it’s the neverland you need, it will lead you there. Only I won’t be there with you. You’d remember me as the darling of your night, the highs of your flights. I am the songs you […]

To the boy who never gave me the chance to love him:Do you still think about our time together in university?Do you lay in bed replaying the moments that we shared together?Do you ever stay up thinking “what if”?I know that the answer is no to all of the above. When things were over between […]

You don’t always have to be the nice girl. Not when it means accepting less than you deserve. Not when it means allowing others to walk over you. Not when it means sacrificing your own happiness to make the people around you more comfortable. Stop playing nice in order to keep the peace. Especially when […]

It’s difficult being the girl who thinks “too much” in a world where logic trumps feelings. It’s a constant battle to either quiet your feelings or scare people away. We all do it, some more than others—we hide our hearts to protect them from shattering. We feel “I love you,” but say “that’s great.” We […]

It started with Aarvi and Tarsh as it often did in those days. She brought her new Aarya friend to the party, and the little bitch made a move on Tarsh, so Tanvi, my BFF tossed her aside. Tarsh would choose Aarvi over Aarya because her boobies were bigger and that’s how that worked.  Tanvi […]

My friends thought I was crazy when I hired Swara as our new babysitter. “She’s too hot,” they said. “She will bring wolves to your door,” another said. The “wolves” being other dads who would become enamored with her hypnotic beauty. My friends were not being hyperbolic. Hatvik would have wept over Swara’s perfect hip-to-waist […]

Early on in the relationship, you might feel butterflies in your stomach. You might feel your heart skip a beat. You might get nervous at the thought of seeing this person again. But that feeling isn’t going to last. Eventually, you’re going to grow comfortable with your partner — and that’s okay. In fact, it’s […]

When you’re with the right person, you won’t feel the need to change who you are or pretend to be someone else to get their attention. They won’t care if you’re too loud or too quiet. They won’t care if you’re a CEO or a freelancer or unemployed. They won’t care if your waist is […]

My friends thought I was crazy when I hired Swara as our new babysitter. “She’s too hot,” they said. “She will bring wolves to your door,” another said. The “wolves” being other dads who would become enamored with her hypnotic beauty. My friends were not being hyperbolic. Hatvik would have wept over Swara’s perfect hip-to-waist […]

Pursuing a woman is an art of its own. Pursuing is underrated and easy to dismiss. Humans get into routines, we like what’s comfortable. Once you’ve been with the same person for a certain period of time everything becomes habitual. Every. Last. Thing. We don’t talk about the importance of being perused enough. We all […]

You should say I love you first. And no, you should not be making excuses in your head. Sure, the situation could become awkward if he does not reciprocate your feelings. But those three simple words hold so much weight and meaning to him, and therefore, it is highly unlikely that he will walk away from you […]

Leave if the love is one-sided, if you feel like you’re the only one putting energy into the relationship, the one coming to compromises, the one making sacrifices. Leave if you feel like you’re underappreciated or disrespected. Leave if it feels like the relationship is off-balance, like you are offering up so much more than […]

When you’re younger, everything feels a little bit more emotionally heightened. That’s not to say once you get older your senses are suddenly dulled, but it’s just like more of a selective process that your heart has to decide what’s really worth getting worked up over. I think back to just a few years ago, […]

As charming as life is, it gives us its endless lessons on matters of the heart. They’re sometimes bittersweet, but they’re always there to help us connect the dots. Among many lessons is our outlook and attitude towards the people who come in and out of our lives. We all have our share of people […]

We’ve been on a rocky road. Ever since we’ve started talking, it’s been a rocky road. You weren’t like anyone else. You were different than anyone I’ve ever met. You ARE different than anyone in this universe. We have our ups and downs and it’s completely crazy—there’s pure insanity. I’m far from perfect, you’re far […]

Whether you are in the top two of your class, in the top two of the list of people to get that promotion, the second favorite child, his second love, or just the second option in any existing list there is, read this and know that these circumstances have no power over you, hence they […]

I keep trying to recall how we got here. I’m trying to connect the dots from the first time we met to the time we found ourselves sitting together late at night, talking about the most random things. And then I keep trying to connect those to the mornings I’d catch myself smiling first thing […]

There are three words that haunt me like the sound of a scream in the night echoing off of whatever it can find They cling to life when they are told to let go Those three words fell so easily out of your mouth and were quickly packaged and shipped to your house where we […]

It is a rare and beautiful gift to love deeply. But for those of us who do so, the pain of losing someone we love can be just as deep. Losing a relationship or a friendship can feel like letting go of a part of yourself. As though the truths, secrets, kisses, and laughter that […]

Will I ever find my soulmate?Will I ever find someone who loves me more than life itself- or even harder-someone I love more than life itself?It’s cyclesI meet youI like youI ask youYou say yesYou’re happyI’m tormentedI end itYou’re unhappyI’m still tormentedNobody’s feelings get hurt but yoursThe guilt of your feelings digging a hole in […]

I had forgotten I ever lived in the city proper until I remembered you. And when I did, I wondered if I would recognize you if I ever saw you on the street. I probably wouldn’t, but I remembered your hair weren’t quite black, but tinged with it, and I think you wore glasses because […]

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In the old house, we sometimes slept late. I’d wake up far past the time set on my alarm because I heard voices outside my door, or cats meowing for their delayed breakfast. We’d sleep late, or we’d wake up early and drink coffee on the couch and watch the kind of Sunday morning shows […]

Exhausted isn’t just enough to describe the state I am going through right now. I am exhausted yes, this tiredness is beyond physiological tiredness. It’s psychological, it’s emotional. I am tired of being strong. I am tired of trying to put on that smile on my face every day of a strong man and be […]

I don’t know a lot about superheroes. I’m a lazy reader, so I watch the movies. What I do know is that Wonder Woman, Catwoman, and She-Hulk are, in fact, women. Amazing women saving the universe and our humanity. Being a woman is hard work, with or without super powers or awesome kick-assery skills. Do they deal with the same […]

Laura had been avoiding me for weeks. Whenever I saw her, she made up lame excuses for why she hadn’t returned my calls, and I was getting more and more frustrated. She had been my closest friend, yet here she was, being evasive and weird. Finally, I confronted her.  “Can we just talk?” I said quietly, […]

I took a walk along the eastern lakeshore this morning. The one with a view that glitters in the daylight and splashes in melodies at night. And it made me think about how beautiful nature and the water’s magical combination truly is. It’s a symbol of inspiring love. Each morning, the lake basks in its love of the sun’s warmth. Its […]

It reveals something to me about loss, but I think it’s the most wonderful thing in the world to go into the woods season after season and see the same animals there every time and know exactly where to find them. It’s the way we know how the lofty brown squirrel chewing on pinecones will […]

We can very easily mistake attachment for love. We can very easily mistake gripping, and clasping at a relationship for fighting for it, for caring in ways most don’t these days. But that can often mean that we’re fostering an unhealthy attachment. Attachment speaks to trying to keep something in your life from a place […]

It’s a weekday evening and you’re feeling restless. You’re texting friends and you’re watching Netflix and you’re on your laptop and you’re scrolling through Tumblr or Facebook or Instagram or Twitter. Your attention is in ten different directions, yet there’s a tug, a tiny voice in the back of your mind. It asks: what are you […]

I’m slowly learning that ignoring the red flags you see in the beginning is probably the worst thing you could do to yourself because they never turn green and they never change. I’m slowly learning that the old cliche that the red flags you see in the beginning become the reasons you leave later is […]

I hope you never stop investing in yourself no matter who you’re with or how much you’re loved or how much you’ve accomplished. I hope you don’t suppress your needs or desires because you’re afraid of how people will perceive you or how they’ll judge you. I hope you can always be enough for yourself […]

Sometimes in this life, we keep counting on the fact that the people we love will just know that we do love them, which makes us forget to say it out loud or show it anymore. But here’s the thing, no matter how much you think the person in front of you may know that you love […]

I lie about being fine because it is an easy way to keep conversations from becoming awkward. Yes, I am going through something. Yes, it would help to get some of my darker emotions off my chest. But that does not mean I want to talk about my problems to every single person who approaches […]

When I look back on some of the things I prayed for in the past, I feel lucky and grateful that they didn’t happen because now that I know better, some of the things I prayed for would have ruined my life. You see, it’s not that God didn’t answer your prayer, he answered it […]

When I look back on some of the things I prayed for in the past, I feel lucky and grateful that they didn’t happen because now that I know better, some of the things I prayed for would have ruined my life. You see, it’s not that God didn’t answer your prayer, he answered it […]

It is a universal truth: something only runs when it is being chased. A gazelle from a lion. A minute from a second. A criminal from a cop. We run because we fear danger. We run because we believe if we stay in one spot, pain will ensue. We don’t stop until we feel safe again. An […]

Ignore her text because she doesn’t care enough to answer yours. And if she can’t do the bare minimum good luck getting her to do anything else. Ignore her text because she’s not making a point to show up. Ignore her text because all you’ve been doing is talking for months and nothing has come […]

Dear Diary, I’ve been writing in you for as long as I can remember. When I was younger, I would write about how annoying my brother was being, or how unfair it was that my parents had stricter rules for me than him. Or I’d write about the cute and hot girls in my class. […]

“Bang!” We heard something loud and stopped dead in our tracks. Could we have just heard what we thought we heard? We waited a moment and listened, then continued ahead on our trek through the woods. We had been there many times before. Not this particular place, but it felt familiar, for we had been […]

If a girl posts a picture or a reel, she gets over 500 likes. But if I’m posting knowledge, maybe about 20 likes? You like her pictures better because it gets straight to the point? Her brown eyes tell a better story? Her legs and small waist is clear and you don’t have to read […]

Seneca wrote, “What progress, you ask, have I made? I have begun to be a friend to myself.” I have wrestled with this idea for quite some time now because this thought is incredibly subjective, and so everyone has their own opinion of what it means to be a friend to yourself. Until recently, I really struggled […]

God, Goddess, Creator, Mother Nature, Universe? I am unsure of who created me. Who took the stars, crushed them into fine powder, and poured them into this vessel. Who took the clay of the planets and molded me into this imperfect being, filled with the magic of the universe. Who put the twinkle of the […]

I’m wrapped up in my blanket that feels like a cloud holding me close. The soft glow of my crystal lamp gives off enough light to see my words, but it’s intimate enough that I don’t feel exposed. The pen strokes are furiously outside the lines, and it’s unsettling not having any reason or rhythm […]

There are boyswho are going to promise youforevers in song,in poetry,in words that are just so damned prettythey will be hard to resist. You’re their dream girl.Beautiful, strong, independent.Forever, they sigh, forever. But their forevers comewith hidden terms and conditions, their love is a secret contract,with addendum and asterisks. Forever is onlyuntil you start dreaming […]

The lights in the sky have always meant home. The North. Miles of flat road and high beams and no one else around. A gift from above not meant to be explained or counted on or captured — just experienced. They shut you up and glue you to your driver’s seat on the side of the road […]

Many a sleepless night, I lie there in the darkness, eyes open wideLost in a myriad of thoughts, I wander aimlessly, searching for a ride A colossal light appears in the horizon, thundering towards me like a mighty juggernautIt approaches hastily still, I recognize it, my late night train of thought Rain starts to pour […]

Here we are at another impasse Where we’ve both spewed to much venom and left the other burned  And I hate you so much I’ll storm out and never say your name again But those dark eyes that see right through me are so burned in my memory My thoughts often drift back to them And I […]

You are each beautiful, tragically so. You are the sum of your parts, but in that you are a striking testament to your story. Your scars. Your lines. Your curves. Dimples where skin hangs just slightly sallow over bones, and freckles where maybe you wish they weren’t. But you are as beautiful as you are […]

Do birds fear dying while flying? Do they feel their last fall as they crash on the ground? The soft grass in their wings? Or the hard and cold or hot pavement stone or rooftop? Do they look at the sky in the end and wish they could feel the air once again? Where do […]

In a pack of wolves, the alpha walks at the end. He wanders the wild, crossing every stream, feeling the way through the darkness in order for his beloved pack to remain as one. This is the core intent of those who feel like an outcast—only the compassion is acted out from a distance. If the […]

The earth woman journeys to the underworld. She is where lifeforms begin to evolve into pure connection. She is the sheltered places we rest our heads at night — the cradle of nature and of life. She is the peacemaker, the builder, the mother, the musician, the analyst, the minister, and the nurturer who incorporates her […]

Just be patient and watch how everything eventually works out in your favor, even if it doesn’t seem like it right now. Just be patient and you will understand why some people weren’t meant to stay in your life. You will see their true colors, you will see how they treat other people, you will […]

Some girls are always running around, trying to get shit done. They have a million things on their plate because they hate saying no to an opportunity, no to a friend in need, no to the chance to have some fun. Stressed out girls are trying their hardest to balance their social lives and careers, […]

Our only reach was for the glass of hope that was centered between us. Parched of connection, we thirstily and desperately extended our tired hands, at first for each other and then for nothing. This is what it’s like to love a ghost. Our promised “could-be’s” pooled at the base of our icy foundations. We […]

You cannot be fixedFor you are not brokenEven when you feel like you areFor you are fine chinaWith your cracks filled with goldThat radiate brighter than the sun You cannot be fixedFor you are not brokenEven when you feel overwhelmedWith the heavinessAnd weight of the worldKnow that you are allowedTo put it downTo let goFor […]

Dear God, Please don’t let me get attached to what’s not meant for me anymore. Don’t let me get attached to something or someone that you plan on taking away from me. I know your plan is unknown but until you reveal it to me, please make it easier. Don’t let me hold on to what I need […]